I'm completely useless right now. I'm not writing and I'm not working a job that can give us the things we need. I work at L'eggs Hanes Bali for a pittance that keeps allows me to make minimum payments on all the credit cards I had to get to supplement my pittance. Right now the priority has become the job. Which is unfortunate. I wish the priority was writing. But circumstances outside my control make it impossible for it to be the main thing. I guess. Ugh.
I keep feeling that if I just get a good job, and just get an apartment so that we can have our own space and all that, that things will get better. And this is kind of bullshit. Things are always going to be in chaos and I know that. I just want a break from being a bra-fitter, a break from being a grad-student, a break from debt, a break from life! And I won't get a break from anything so I just need to suck it up and keep applying. I'm afraid to even think about the student loans.
Onward and upward. I'm going to be applying for Tedder Industries today as a creative copywriter. But here's the thing, it's to write about second amendment rights and conceal carry. While I'm comfortable with guns in my house and comfortable around guns, I don't know that I want to tell the world they need guns! I don't think most people should have guns, and I also believe that if outlawing all guns this very instant would help with the violence in our country I'd give up my gun in a heartbeat. So how am I going to work for a company whose success hinges upon more and more people getting guns and conceal carry licenses? I know I could do my job, but will I feel good doing it, is the question. I guess I'll cross that bridge if I get a damn interview. I haven't managed one of those since 2014. I'm getting a little discouraged.
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ReplyDeleteYou really shouldn't blame yourself. It's not you, it's the economy. How can you blame yourself when you're doing everything you can, when you've taken the right steps and you're doing 'all the things?'
ReplyDeleteMy son and his bf are going to be moving in with their friends to get on their feet and save money. I'm sharing an apartment with my ex and I'm looking at having to get a consolidation loan for my credit card and closing all my accounts so I won't be able to use credit.
The economy is so terrible they've drastically lowered the price of gasoline in an attempt to stimulate spending. When they cut the price at the pump to lower than it's been in over a decade, you know shits getting real.
I hate to make such a horrifying suggestion but perhaps you could apply at a convenience store or grocery store for more hours. It doesn't have to be permanent after all. In the meantime you could still be putting apps in elsewhere. What about teaching. Surely your degree qualifies you to teach at a school.
I know, advice sorta stinks when shits shitty but I had to throw something out there.
You really shouldn't blame yourself. It's not you, it's the economy. How can you blame yourself when you're doing everything you can, when you've taken the right steps and you're doing 'all the things?'
ReplyDeleteMy son and his bf are going to be moving in with their friends to get on their feet and save money. I'm sharing an apartment with my ex and I'm looking at having to get a consolidation loan for my credit card and closing all my accounts so I won't be able to use credit.
The economy is so terrible they've drastically lowered the price of gasoline in an attempt to stimulate spending. When they cut the price at the pump to lower than it's been in over a decade, you know shits getting real.
I hate to make such a horrifying suggestion but perhaps you could apply at a convenience store or grocery store for more hours. It doesn't have to be permanent after all. In the meantime you could still be putting apps in elsewhere. What about teaching. Surely your degree qualifies you to teach at a school.
I know, advice sorta stinks when shits shitty but I had to throw something out there.
Yeah things are freaking tough right now :( and I appreciated advice ^^ - I do have a few things I'm looking at right now, and I may (crosses fingers) have a job with the newspaper. I don't know for sure yet but I'll know this week whether it's a yes or a no. And I also have an adjunct teaching application I'm putting in to teach at the reservation north of Spokane. I really would love to be teaching. It's kind of where my passion lies. That and writing. So here's hoping that something gives.
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